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    Monday, January 3rd, 2011
    4:06 pm
    @@@@@“Go ahead of me into the lobby and walk to
    @@@@@“Go
    ahead of me into the lobby and walk to the front doorEmpty ashtrays or something and look busy,
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    153
    but keep glancing aroundI’ll come out in a few moments and you’ll see me go over and talk to
    Saint Jay and four priests, who’ll be with him—”
    “Priests?” interrupted the astonished Ishmael“Men of the cloth, sir? Four of them? What they
    doing here, mon? More bad things happen? The obeah?”
    “They came here to pray so the bad things will stop—no more obeahBut what’s important to
    me is that I must speak to one of them aloneWhen they leave the lobby, this priest I have to see
    may break away from the others to be by himself or possibly to meet someone elseDo you think
    you could follow him without his seeing you?”
    “Would MrSaint Jay tell me to do that?”
    “Suppose I have him look over at you and nod his headI am faster than the mongoose and, like the mongoose, I know every foot trail
    on TranquilityHe goes one way, I know where he’s going and will be there firstBut how will I
    know which priest? More than one may go off by himself
    “I’ll talk to all four separatelyHe’ll be the last one
    “That’s pretty fast thinking,” said Bourne“You’re right; they could separateI am fifth in my class at ’Serrat’s Technical AcademyThe four ahead of me
    are all girls, so they don’t have to work
    “That’s an interesting observation—”
    “In five or six years I’ll have the money to attend the university in Barbados!”
    “Maybe soonerWalk into the lobby and head for the doorLater, after the priests
    leave, I’ll come out looking for you, but I won’t be in this uniform, from any distance you won’t
    know meIf I don’t find you, meet me in an hour— Where? Where’s a quiet place?”
    “Tranquility Chapel, sirThe path in the woods above the east beachNo one ever goes there,
    even on the Sabbath
    “There is a remaining subject, sir—”
    “Fifty dollars, Ameri
    Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
    4:10 pm
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    never
    know what blame he should take for marrying her
    One of the injustices of the world was that it was so easy to make the
    innocent and caring ones happy with so littleScarlett put her head
    on his shoulder"It's a lot, making omega seamaster gmt somebody happy," she said"I
    didn't understand that until Cat was bornI didn't understand a lot
    of thingsSomehow, I learned from her Rhett rested his cheek on
    her
    head"You've changed, ScarlettI have to get to
    know you all over again
    "I new louis vuitton have to get to know you, periodI never did, even when we were
    togetherI'll do better this time, I promise
    "Don't try too hard, you'll wear me out Rhett chuckled, then kissed
    her forehead"Stop laughing at me, Rhett Butler no, don'tI like
    it, daytona rolex even when it makes me mad
    That should finish off the firesWhen the sun comes up, we'll be able
    to see if anything's leftWe should try and get some sleep
    We're going to be very busy in a few hours She nestled her head
    into
    the hollow of tiffany toggle heart his neck and yawnedWhile she slept, Rhett moved her,
    lifted her into his arms and sat down again, holding her as she had
    held
    CatThe gentle Irish rain made a curtain of soft silence around the
    old stone towerAt sunrise, Scarlett stirred and tiffany price
    Saturday, January 1st, 2011
    4:11 pm
    @@@@@So I'll be back before that, and I will help
    @@@@@So I'll be back before that, and I will help you
    get where you're going
    He leaned one of the doors away from the entrance to his cave, stepped around it, and then let
    it fall back into placeThat might be hard to do on one legI hoped Ian truly was
    coming back
    While I waited for him, I stared up at the two stars I could see and let my head slowly become
    stationaryI really didn't like human drugsMy body hurt, but the lurching in my head was
    worse
    Time passed slowly, but I didn't fall asleepI'd been sleeping most of the last twenty-four hours
    I probablywas hungry, tooI would have to wait for my stomach to calm before I was sure
    Ian came back before the light, just as he'd promised
    “Feeling any better?” he asked as he stepped around the doorI haven't moved my head yet
    “Do you think it'syou reacting to the morphine, or Melanie's body?”
    “It's MelShe reacts badly to most painkillersShe found that out when she broke her wrist ten
    years ago
    He thought about that for a momentDealing with two people at once
    “Are you hungry yet?”
    I smiled“I thought I smelled breadYes, I think my stomach is past the worst
    “I was hoping you'd say that
    His shadow sprawled out beside meHe felt for my hand, then pulled my fingers open and
    placed a familiar round shape in
    Friday, December 31st, 2010
    4:14 pm
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    "Shoot," Ridges sighed, " ' tain't doin' you no harmJus' mindin' its own business
    Wyman turned to Goldstein"The preacher's gettin' all excited over a bug He laughed sarcastically, and then said, "Killin' one of Gawd's daytona rolex creatures, huh?"
    Goldstein shrugged"Every man has his own viewpoint," he said gently
    Ridges lowered his head stubbornly"Not sayin' 'tain't hard to make fun of a man if he believes in the written Word
    "You eat meat, don't ya?" Wyman demandedHe was pleased to have the better arguments, for usually he felt inferior to most of white chanel watch the men in the squad"Where the hell's it say you can eat meat but you can't kill a bug?"
    "Meat ain't the same
    Wyman poured a little dirt over the caterpillar and watched it struggle to free itself"I don't see you caring if you kill a Jap or two," he said
    "They're heathen," Ridges said
    "Excuse me," Goldstein said, gucci bangle watch "but I don't think you're quite rightI was reading an article a few months ago which said there were over a hundred thousand Christians in Japan
    Ridges shook his head"Well, Ah wouldn' want to be killing one of them," he said
    "But you'll have to," Wyman said"Whyn't you admit you're wrong?"
    "The Lord'll keep me from rolex submariner price shooting a Christian," Ridges said stubbornly
    "That's what Ah believe," Ridges saidActually, he was quite upsetThe writhing of the insect had recalled to him the way the bodies of the Japanese had looked the morning after they had tried to cross the riverThey had seemed the same as the animals who had died on his father's deville watch f
    Thursday, December 30th, 2010
    4:06 pm
    @@@@@Her eyes glowed with pleasure when she
    @@@@@Her eyes
    glowed with pleasure when she moved from room to room to check
    that
    everything was readyThank heaven Pansy was
    back
    from TaraShe was very good at making the other servants do their
    jobs, much better than the new butler hired to replace PorkScarlett
    took a glass of champagne from the tray the new man held out to her
    At least he was good at serving, quite stylish in fact, and Scarlett
    did so like for things to be stylish
    Just then the doorbell soundedShe startled the manservant by
    smiling
    happily, then she moved towards the entrance hall to greet her
    friends
    They arrived in a steady stream for almost an hour and the house
    filled
    with the sound of loud voices, the overpowering smell of perfume and
    powder, the brilliant colors of silks and satins, rubies and
    sapphires
    Scarlett moved through the melee smiling and laughing, flirting idly
    with the men, accepting the fulsome compliments of the womenThey
    were so happy to see her again, they'd missed her so much, no one's
    parties were as exciting as hers, no one's home as beautiful, no one's
    gown as fashionable, no one's hair as glossy, no one's figure as
    youthful, no one's complexion so perfect and creamyI'm having a
    good
    timeIt's a wonderful partyShe glanced over the silver dishes and
    trays on the long polished table to see that the servants were keeping
    them all replenishedQuantities of food-excesses of food-were
    important to her, for she would never forget completely what it had
    been like to come so near to starvation at the end of the WarHer
    friend Mamie Bart caught her eye and smiledA streak of buttery
    sauce
    from the half-eaten oyster patty in Mamie's hand had dribbled from
    the
    corner of ú her mouth down onto the diamond necklace around her fat
    neckScarlett turned away in disgustMamie was going to be big as
    an ú elephant one of these daysThank goodness, I can eat all I want
    and never gain a poundShe smiled entrancingly at Harry
    Connington,
    her friend Sylvia's husband"You must have found some elixir, Harry,
    you look ten years younger than you did last time I saw you She
    watched with malicious amusement as Harry sucked in hisstomach
    His
    face turned red, then faintly purple before he abandoned the effort to
    hold it inScarlett laughed aloud, then moved awayA burst of
    laughter caught her attention, and she drifted towards the trio of men
    who were its source
    Wednesday, December 29th, 2010
    4:04 pm
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    “It’s what I’m to say to you‘Reach his friend across the AtlanticThe man has been phoning all
    night I can attest to the accuracy of that, monsieurThe switchboard tells me that last call was less
    than thirty minutes ago
    “Thirty minutes ago?” said Jason, looking hard at the concierge and then at his watchall night?”
    The hotel man nodded as Bourne started for the elevator
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    195
    “Alex, for Christ’s sake, what is it? They replica rolex submariner told me you’ve been calling all—”
    “Are you at the hotel?” interrupted Conklin quickly
    “Get to a public phone in the street and call me back
    Again the slow, cumbersome elevator; the faded ornate lobby now half filled with Parisians
    talking manically, many heading for the bar and their prenoon apéritifs; and again the hot bright
    summer street outside and the maddening congested trafficWhere was a telephone? He walked
    rapidly down the pavement toward the gucci hobo handbag Seine—where was a phone? There! Across the converging
    rue du Bac, a red-domed booth with posters covering the sides
    Dodging the onslaught of automobiles and small trucks, all with furious drivers, he raced to the
    other side of the street and down to the boothHe sped inside, deposited a coin, and after an
    agonizing few moments during which he explained that he was not calling Austria, the international
    operator accepted his AT&T credit number and put the vintage hermes call through to Vienna, Virginia
    “Why the hell couldn’t I talk from the hotel?” asked Bourne angrily“I called you last night
    from there!”
    “That was last night, not today
    “Any news about Mo?”
    “Nothing yet, but they may have made a mistakeWe may have a line on the army doctor
    “Break him!”
    “With pleasureI’ll take off my foot and smash his face with it until he begs to cooperate—if the
    line on him is rumb
    “That’s not why you’ve been calling me all night, prada bag though, is it?”
    “NoI was with Peter Holland for five hours yesterdayI went over to see him after we talked,
    and his reaction was exactly what I thought it would be, with a few generous broadsides in the
    bargainHe insists you fly back immediately; you’re the only one with direct knowledge
    “Bullshit! He can’t insist I do anything, much less give me an order!”
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    Monday, December 27th, 2010
    4:09 pm
    @@@@@ A hurt body and mind aren't just like
    @@@@@
    A hurt body and mind aren't just like a
    dictatorship; they are a dictatorshipThere is no
    tyrant as merciless as pain, no despot so cruel as
    confusionThat my mind had been as badly hurt as
    my body was a thing I only came to realize once I
    was alone and all other voices dropped awayThe
    fact that I had tried to choke my wife of twentyfive
    years for doing no more than trying to wipe
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    the sweat off my forehead after I told her to
    leave the room was the very least of itThe fact
    that we hadn't made love a single time in the
    months between the accident and the separation,
    didn't even try, wasn't at the heart of it, either,
    although I thought it was suggestive of the larger
    problemEven the sudden and distressing bursts of
    anger weren't at the heart of the matter
    That heart was a kind of pulling-awayI don't
    know how else to describe itMy wife had come to
    seem like someoneMost of the people in
    my life also felt other, and the dismaying thing
    was that I didn't much careIn the beginning I
    had tried to tell myself that the otherness I felt
    when I thought about my wife and my life was
    probably natural enough in a man who sometimes
    couldn't even remember the name of that thing you
    pulled up to close your pants - the zoomer, the
    zimmer, the zippity-doo-dahI told myself it
    would pass, and when it didn't and Pam told me she
    wanted a divorce, what followed my anger was
    reliefBecause now that other feeling was okay to
    have, at least toward herNow she really was
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    otherShe'd taken off the Freemantle uniform and
    quit the team
    During my first weeks on Duma, that sense of
    otherness allowed me to prevaricate easily and
    fluentlyI answered letters and e-mails from
    people like Tom Riley, Kathi Green, and William
    Bozeman III - the immortal Bozie - with short
    jottings (I'm fine, the weather's fine, the bones
    are mending) that bore little resemblance to my
    actual lifeAnd when their communications first
    slowed and then stopped, I wasn't sorry
    Only Ilse still seemed to be on my teamOnly Ilse
    refused to turn in her uniformI never got that
    other feeling about herIlse was still on my side
    of the glass window, always reaching outIf I
    didn't e-mail her every day, she calledIf I
    didn't call her once every third day, she called
    meAnd to her I didn't lie about my plans to fish
    in the Gulf or check out the Evergl
    Sunday, December 26th, 2010
    4:14 pm
    @@@@@You're one of us, IanDid you hear what she
    @@@@@You're one of
    us, IanDid you hear what she said in there? She was screamingmonstersThat's
    how she sees us nowShe doesn't want your comfort
    They didn't speak againA minute passed, and I heard one set of slow footsteps moving around
    the edge of the roomEventually, the light swept across me, turning my lids red again
    I huddled myself more tightly together, expecting him to touch me
    There was a quiet sigh, and then the sound of him sitting on the stone, not as close beside me
    as I would have expected
    With a click, the light disappeared
    I waited in the silence for a long time for him to speak, but he was just as silent as I was
    Finally, I stopped waiting and returned to my mourningIan did not interruptI sat in the
    blackness of the big hole in the ground and grieved for lost souls with a human at my side
    CHAPTER 41
    Vanished
    Ian sat with me for three days in the darkness
    He left for only a few short minutes at a time, to get us food and waterAt first, Ian ate, though
    I did notThen, as he realized that it wasn't a loss of appetite that left my tray full, he stopped
    eating, too
    I used his brief absences to deal with the physical needs that I could not ignore, thankful for the
    proximity of the odorous streamAs my fast lengthened, those needs vanished
    I couldn't keep from sleeping, but I did not make myself comfortableThe first day, I woke to
    find my head and shoulders cradled on his lapI recoiled from him, shuddering so violently that
    he did not repeat the gestureAfter that, I slumped against the stones where I was, and when I
    woke, I would curl back up into my silent ball at once
    “Please,” Ian whispered on the third day–at least I thought it was the third day; there was no
    way to be sure of the passing time in this dark, silent p
    Saturday, December 25th, 2010
    4:14 pm
    @@@@@Even now the watery sagging eyes, the
    @@@@@Even now the watery sagging eyes, the paunch, the mottled bulbous nose, were staring at him with sinceritySure he knew Bill HearnIf they put Conn on the rack, he'd die swearing he knew him, believing he knew him
    "I'll tell you what, when you see Bill Hearn again, you tell him you saw me, or write to him, tell him that
    What had gone on in Conn's head for twenty years in the Army? Or particularly the last five when he had discovered he could swim as an officer?
    Pop! went Dalleson's carbineWhy don't you look him up? He'll be glad to see youI'd kinda like to see him againThey don't make them more sociable than your father With a delicious effort Hearn restrained himself from saying, Maybe he can give you a job at the gate, keeping people out
    Instead he stood up"I'm going in for a dip," he announcedHe sprinted down the beach, hit the water flatly, and coasted under, feeling his mirth, his disgust, his weariness wash away in the delight of cold water against his heated fleshWhen he came up he spouted some water gleefully, and began to swimOn the beach the officers were still sunning themselves, playing bridge or talkingTwo of them were throwing a ball back and forthThe jungle looked almost pretty from the water
    Some artillery boomed very faintly over the horizonHearn ducked under again, came up slowlyThe General had said once, savoring the epigram, "Corruption is the cement that keeps the Army from breaking apart Conn? Cummings hadn't applied it that way, but Conn was still a product
    All right and so was heWhat was corruption but knowing virtue and eschewing it? All very neatAnd where did General Cummings fit in? That was a bigger question, that was one which couldn't be tied up in a packageIn any case he was going to stay away from the GeneralCummings had left him alone, and he would return the compli
    Friday, December 24th, 2010
    4:06 pm
    @@@@@She should have known better than to fly
    @@@@@She should have known better than to fly off
    the handle that wayBut he shouldn't have taunted me about my
    reputationHow could he have found out that I'm outcast? She'd
    never
    been so unhappy in her whole lifeLater Scarlett was ashamed of
    herselfDrinking in the morning! Only low-life drunks did such a
    thingThings weren't so bad, really, she told herselfAt least she
    knew now when Rhett would be coming backIt was much too far in
    the
    future, but it was definiteNow she wouldn't waste time wondering if
    today might be the day or the day after that
    February opened with a surprising warm spell that called forth
    premature leaves on trees and filled the air with the scent of waking
    earth"Open all the windows," Scarlett told the servants, "and let
    the mustiness out The breeze lifting the loose tendrils of hair at
    her temples was deliciousSuddenly she was gripped by a terrible
    longing for TaraShe'd be able to sleep there with the spring-laden
    wind, bringing the smell of the warming earth into her bedroomColleton will be able to start at least three more houses
    once this weather gets the frost out of the ground, but he'll never do
    it unless I nag him into it
    I've never known such a picky man in all my lifeEverything has to be
    just soHe'll wait till the ground's warm enough to dig to China and
    find no frostSuppose she went for just a few days? A few days
    wouldn't make that much difference, would it? Scarlett remembered
    Ashley's pallor and dejected slump at the Carnival Ball, and she made
    a
    small sound of disappointmentShe wouldn't be able to relax at Tara
    if she did goShe sent Pansy with a message to Elias to bring the
    carriage aroundShe had to go find Joe ColletonThat evening, as if
    to reward her for doing her duty, the doorbell sounded just after
    darkness fell"Scarlett, honey," Tony Fontaine called out when the
    butler let him in, "an old friend needs a room for the night, will you
    be merciful?"
    "Tony!" Scarlett ran from the sitting room to embrace h
    Thursday, December 23rd, 2010
    4:04 pm
    @@@@@ “Why not, may the man with one foot
    @@@@@
    “Why not, may the man with one foot missing ask?” said Alex
    “I’d think you’d be able to answer that better than me,” retorted the DCI“Apparently all
    accesses to the cellars are sealed off except for two elevators that bypass the first floor and for
    which you need a keyThis one and another on the other side; this takes us to where we want to go,
    the other leads to the furnaces, air-conditioning units and all the rest of the normal basement
    equipmentFrank gave me the key, incidentallyIf it doesn’t return to its slot within a given period
    of time, another alarm goes off
    “It all strikes me as unnecessarily complicated,” said Panov curtly, nervously
    “Not necessarily, Mo,” interrupted Conklin gently“Explosives can be concealed pretty easily in
    heating pipes and ductsAnd did you know that during the last days of Hitler’s bunker a few of his
    saner aides tried to insert poison gas into the air-filtering machinery? These are just precautions
    The elevator stopped and the door opened“To your left, Doctor,” Holland saidThe hallway
    was a glistening pristine white, antiseptic in its way, which was altogether proper, as this
    underground complex was a highly sophisticated medical centerIt was devoted not only to the
    healing of men and women, but also to the process of breaking them down, crippling their
    resistance so that information might be revealed, truths learned that could prevent the penetration of
    high-risk operations, frequently saving lives as a result
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    241
    They entered a room that was in stark contrast to the antiseptic quality of the fluorescent-lit
    hallwayThere were heavy armchairs and soft indirect lighting, a coffee urn on a table with cups
    and saucers; newspapers and magazines were folded neatly on other tables, all the comforts of a
    lounge designed for those waiting for someone or somethingFrom an inner door a man in a white
    medical jacket appeared; he was frowning, looking uncertain
    “Director Holland?” he said, approaching Peter, extending his handNeedless to say, we didn’t expect you
    “I’m afraid it’s an emergency and hardly one of my choosingMay I introduce you to DrMorris
    Panov—unless you know him?”
    “Of him, of course Walsh again extended his hand“A pleasure, Doctor, also a privilege
    “You may take both back before we’re finished, Doct
    Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010
    4:16 pm
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    Brown's lawyer - now ex-lawyer, I guess - was
    calling for a full investigationElizabeth
    perhaps spoke for all of Sarasota County on this
    issue by closing her eyes, slumping down against
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    Wireman diamond gucci came back in with eggs enough for both of
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    sleep apnea, she wouldn't die young
    "Missed a spot on your ear, muchacho," Wireman
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    "What were you painting in the middle of the
    night?"
    "I don't want to talk about it right now
    He shrugged and nodded"You're getting that
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    "Don't start with me
    "Matters have come to a sad pass when I offer
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    and strong like Wireman
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    He killed the tube, then turned to me attentively
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    Wireman smiled and patted his hands together
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    Sunday, December 19th, 2010
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    Saturday, December 18th, 2010
    4:11 pm
    @@@@@ Instead of turning left at the trail and
    @@@@@
    Instead of turning left at the trail and following it out of the grove into the shadow, he stepped past the machine gun into the clearing, and crept from rock to rock until he reached the protection of the cliffHe stared back a last time at the grove and then continued on down the pass
    As he moved along he was bothered by a double sense of disappointment and frustrationHe had turned back before he had to, and this bothered himInstinctively, he was wondering how to change the story so that he would satisfy CroftBut more directly, more painfully, he was thinking with regret how easy it would have been to have taken the wrist watchNow that he was out of the grove, he was disgusted with himself for having been afraid to lingerHe thought of the things he could have doneBesides the watch he could have retrieved the knife (he had forgotten about it when he looked at the soldier) or he could have jammed the machine gun by putting a handful of dirt in the boltHe thought with amusement of how their faces would have looked, and realized with a shock how terrified they would be when they discovered the dead manGoddam, good ol' Martinez, hoping that Croft would say the same thing
    In less than an hour he reached the platoon again, and gave his account to CroftThe only change he made was to say that there was no way to slip by the second bivouac"You had to kill that Jap, huh?"
    "Yes
    Croft shook his headThat'll stir 'em up from here to Jap headquarters He thought for a moment, and said pensively, "I don't know, you never can say what's gonna come out"Goddam, no think of that He was too tired now to feel any deep regret, but as he lay down on his bedding he wondered how many more mistakes he would discover in the next few days"Goddam, tired," he said to rouse Croft's sympathy
    "Yeah, I guess you had a rough go Croft laid his hand on Martinez's shoulder, gripped it fiercely"Don't say a damn word to the LootenantYou went clear through the pass without seeing a damn thing, y' understand?"
    Martinez was puzzled
    "That's it, you're a good boy, Jap
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    Friday, December 10th, 2010
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    Tuesday, December 7th, 2010
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    Sir Thomas meant to be giving MrRushworth’s opinion in better
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    162
    Mansfield Park
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    of the others not to smileRushworth hardly knew what to do
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    163
    Jane Austen
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